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[k0kka.livejournal.com]

[She's back out here again, a tiny altar to all that she holds dear. She's down on her knees in the dirt in a new white shift.]

Wish Abe was here, bit too manly and dead for this place though. [She looks upwards and is silent, listening to the world around her, all the trees and the animals, they make unnatural sounds in this strange garden, chords drawn in directions Paderau doesn't understand and can't really decipher with all the fire in her center. If Jast were here, he could sort it out, but no boys allowed and all Paderau can do is listening to him singing in the back of her mind. The others are there too, always are, that's the way it should be.

She voices herself eventually, pensively,]

I learned a long time ago there's nothing to do but wear it. Screaming never brings anybody back. [Hadn't brought her ducklings back, hadn't brought Abe back, won't undo this.] Haven't felt this helpless in a century, I swear it. I guess it was about time I got back on my knees.

Xion, baby, I know I need to talk to you. And the gal I apparently chewed on.

[She closes her eyes tiredly.]

I'll be here for a while.

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[border-phantasm.livejournal.com]

Are you feeling better?

[k0kka.livejournal.com]

No.

[border-phantasm.livejournal.com]

I can only offer my apologies for not providing assistance.

[k0kka.livejournal.com]

...thank you.

[border-phantasm.livejournal.com]

Thank me when I genuinely assist you in the future.

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[mnementomori]

[she doesn't bother answering, just goes looking. She's wearing borrowed clothes now that all of hers have been ruined in various ways.]

[and when she reaches her friend, she stops. Wary, yes, but not afraid. Most of it is worry, and...that missing ache. She just wants the person she cares about back.]

I'm here.

[k0kka.livejournal.com]

C'mere.

[mnementomori]

[she takes a step, her eyes fixing on the offered arm...then drops down and just throws her arms around the woman, pressing her face to her shoulder. A solid sign that everything is right again.]

[k0kka.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, sweetheart.

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[willbereborn.livejournal.com]

[ She hears Paddy talk, but stays behind the tree, like she tends to do when she's scared. Not that she's particularly scared this time 'round, but she is rather apprehensive. Will it be alright? She really wants it to be. She wants to squeeze her into a hug. Something like that.

When she stops talking, Birdie leans her cheek against the tree and makes a small noise, as if wanting to call out her attention, but not sure if she should. ]

[k0kka.livejournal.com]

Shit...

Baby bird...

[willbereborn.livejournal.com]

[ She frowns a little bit and shrugs her shoulders, as if she wants to hide. Her fingers curls and uncurl around air, but she keeps her ground. ]

Is it-- is it okay? [ Meek, quiet. ] To be here, now?

[k0kka.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it's okay now, Birdie.

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[mellifluently.livejournal.com]

[Mahalia doesn't really know what to say, doesn't think anything can really make it better. She still thinks she should have been quicker, braver, better. Shouldn't have left Paderau while she was trapped in that black stuff, maybe should have sung then, maybe they could have avoided all of the hurt. But she didn't, and she has never felt regret or guilt quite so painfully before.

She kneels down close by quietly, wants to offer support, but doesn't want to intrude on the warden's prayers.]

[k0kka.livejournal.com]

You finally sleep?

[mellifluently.livejournal.com]

Yes. Fela gave me a nudge.

[She ducks her head a little, should have known better on that count too. The daughter of a dreamchaser, it was silly to avoid sleeping, especially when she had felt as exhausted as she had.]

How are you feeling?

[k0kka.livejournal.com]

That Fela's a good girl.



I feel like shit, baby.

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[gun-cata.livejournal.com]

[Larry, looking much better if still messaging from bed so Santana doesn't bitch, Larry decides that this is as good a time as any.]

...Paderau?

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[k0kka.livejournal.com]

Hey, how you doin'?

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[gun-cata.livejournal.com]

Eh... been better, but at least there weren't any broken ribs this time.

[She shifts, wondering how to approach this.]

So what happened?

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[k0kka.livejournal.com]

I'm a healer, you know.



A lot of things that shouldn't be able to touch me have been getting their hands on me here.

[mutation_is_great]

What you've said've done more than anything to convince me that you were not in control. I've seen too many similar sentiments from those afflicted by mind twisting curses and mutations.

[k0kka.livejournal.com]

I don't want to convince anyone of anything. It's done, forward's the only way time works.

[mutation_is_great]

Sometimes moving forward is all one can do.

[k0kka.livejournal.com]

Yeah. The sting'll take care of itself, it's just fresh now.



Speaking of forward, I don't think we've met all formal like. I'm Paderau, or Slasher McGee, if you like.