０１８ ☠ voice

[jemerite]

I want to breathe. I am tired of being cold and empty. How much longer.

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[whataprettyname]

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IT'S YOU!

[It's not visible with the Vines set to voice, but Chihiro is pointing at the leaf she'd heard Zinc's voice come out of, gaping.

She's not going to forget that voice any time soon.]

[jemerite]

[There's no sigh, because there's no breath, but...]

Hello.

[whataprettyname]

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...several seconds pass.

Well, Chihiro. What on Earth were you planning on doing after that?

Finally, lamely, with a touch of apology:] Um...hi. I guess...you're Zinc, right? I mean...you're the real Zinc?

[jemerite]

Yes. I am. You are the girl.

[whataprettyname]

My name is Chihiro. [She says it as much for the pleasure of saying it, as anything else.]

So...how are you doing? [Being, well...grown up, and dead, and stuff.]

[cleaningstop]

How much longer? ... For what?

[jemerite]

Do I have to exist. When will it be quiet. Over.

[cleaningstop]

What do you mean with that?

Aren't you happy that you exist?

[jemerite]

No.

[It's a very simple answer.]

I would like to be dead.

[cleaningstop]

You'd what?!

But... think of all the good times you've been able to experience!

[hungry_like_the_wolf]

You've lost me. Whats goin on?

[jemerite]

I'm tired.

[hungry_like_the_wolf]

Tired of what?

[jemerite]

Being.

[hungry_like_the_wolf]

[For once in her life Gavril is visibly shaken.]

Woah, wait a second here. Only people who want to kill themselves say shit like that.

[tosaveyou]

Oh, hello, Zinc.

[A slightly awkward pause.]

Is there anything I can do?

[jemerite]

Hello, Kariya.

[She's used to it.]

No. Maybe I will... feel better, later.

[tosaveyou]

I wish I could help. I know--what it's like. I feel like I'm not the same person I used to be. I never knew, that someone could change into someone else.

[She pauses, hesitates.]

I saw a memory, before. I think it was yours.

[Maybe it wouldn't be right, not to say that she saw it. It would be like stealing, lying.]

[jemerite]

I knew they could... if they were too weak. To hold onto themselves.

[That's how she feels. Too weak. She can't wrap her mind around the idea of the incredible strength it takes her just to carry on.]

I was... not myself. I was a little girl. She was...

[Lively. Hopeful. Determined. Still so young. Zinc hasn't felt young in a long time.]

My memories were with the rest, yes.

[tosaveyou]

I didn't know that until I became someone else. [She smiles, sadly.]

I was someone else here, too. Someone stronger than I am. It was nice, for a little while.

[Not to have the pain.]

But I'd rather be myself.

[In spite of everything. Then, she's silent for a moment.]

There was a man. Named Barbet.

[histrionic]

Shall I warm you up again?

[Kuja thinks this is a suitable private joke.]

I have the same question. How much longer.

[jemerite]

They don't like it, the snakes.

[She remembers that much.]

I don't know, Kuja.

[histrionic]

Who cares what they like? But I would do so only if you asked it of me.

We're alike in one way, you and me. I want it all to end. To return to my death. Maybe we're alike in more way that one. We both long for freedom, yet freedom is denied us.

[jemerite]

[She's quiet for a moment.]

You're unhappy here, Kuja?

[histrionic]

I am unhappy.

[Everywhere.]

Death is my just reward. I was dying when I came here. You were already dead.

[Having seen Zinc's memory, she understands her a little better--a little, as empathy still isn't her strong suit.]