[voice]

[hihou]

-The voice on the other end is... tired. Weak from fasting. But probably from spending days upon days crying in her room as well. No one is keeping score.-

If my miracle powers were working... I could solve this famine. Why won't they work? Why can't I do any good here?

... I really am just taking up space, aren't I? A waste of everyone's time...

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[voice]

[shanghaiworld]

... Do you guys want me to bring or send some stuff over to the shrine? I have more than what two people really need, and besides, I most likely don't need as much as a human.

[hihou]

I'm not sure...

[shanghaiworld]

Are you really that out of it, to question this kind of gesture?

[hihou]

Will it really change anything?

[shanghaiworld]

And just what would you want changed?

[hihou]

I'd still be useless.

[shanghaiworld]

Tell me, is all your worth based around these miracles? Is there nothing else about you that has worth?

[hihou]

The last time I tried to go beyond that, I wound up being resented for it.

But now I can't even be a maiden.

[shanghaiworld]

Again I ask, is there nothing else about you that has worth? Yourself as a person, perhaps?

[hihou]

...

I don't know.

[shanghaiworld]

So if you want to feel useful, try doing something. Anything. You obviously want to help others during this time, right?

[hihou]

What can I do?

[shanghaiworld]

Well, let's take the state outside. There are these flowers out there that seem to be... strange and cause problems for those around them. If you can still fly, perhaps you could carry people around.

[hihou]

I dont really have the strength to fly right now...

[shanghaiworld]

And I happened to offer something that might help with that, didn't I?

[hihou]

It won't make any difference.

[shanghaiworld]

... I just want to know something. You're feeling so weak right now that you couldn't resist me if I tried to ram bread down your mouth, right?

[hihou]

...

You wouldn't do that.

[shanghaiworld]

By this point I'm thinking you'll pass out and not even notice if I did.

... Say, haven't you been on record of saying you are like a god bound in flesh or something?

[hihou]

I am...

[shanghaiworld]

Right, right, and if I remember correctly, gods of the shinto need faith to... do what they do, don't they?

What I'm trying to get at here is that... did those miracles of yours ever work here in the first place?

[hihou]

They could have... maybe... maybe I'm even more useless than I thought.

[shanghaiworld]

... Okay. So you can't do something only you can do. But there is still things that you can do that only you can.

[hihou]

I don't believe that.

[shanghaiworld]

... You know, I've recently found myself in an... odd situation. You were the only person I could think of to talk to about it, although it is a little awkward and things just keep happening, so I never got around to doing it.