queenofheartsrp | Sky's Embrace Followup [Video]

Demons are infernal creatures that often hunt humans, so I can understand why they were scared, but...

That's awful, but that's very much how it was from me. Without even knowing me, people thought I was bad. They wanted nothing to do with me. Or wanted me dead.

Mm. I don't understand it, really...you don't know what someone's heart is like until you get to know them, right? [or lack of one, of course.] So people shouldn't just assume things like that.

Yes, exactly. You can't just dismiss people because they're strange or different. Everyone needs a chance! It's so refreshing to know someone who really gets it.

It's kind of sad that more people don't think that way.

Yeah...

Maybe we can change their minds. ...Maybe I'm being too optimistic again, but if I show that I'm not going to feel down because I'm different, maybe people will, in a small way, think being different is okay. ...I wonder if Jessica would say I'm being an "afterschool specialty" again.

I think that's a good idea. I'll try, too.

An afterschool what?

That's great!

I'm not sure... an afterschool special land or something. I was trying to be positive and she said that I was thinking things are... um... "unrealistically easy," I think she said. Which I don't really understand. I know things like this are hard, but I still think I can work towards them.

Well....you feel sad when you're not positive. It's tough to stop thinking like that and be happy sometimes. But being happy doesn't mean thinking everything is easy, either.

It does seem like Jessica is a little, um. Pessimistic?

Yes. And if I'm able to think in a happy frame of mind, I don't think that I'm being simpler or making things easy. I still feel very strongly about what I say.

Yes, from our time together, I've seen that Jessica does have a lot of pessimism. Especially when it comes to herself. I wish so badly that I could make her realize how great she is. I'm going to keep trying.

That's really nice of you to help her like that. I'll try, too. She's my friend as well, and she's really smart and patient.

Thanks! That's a good idea. As long as we can let her know that she's special, that should hopefully build up her self-confidence some. She just needs to understand how talented and special she is.

...She's also apparently in love with someone and thinks its hopeless. ...I'm having a hard time figuring out if she's just being negative or if it is really hopeless, since she won't tell me who it is.

Jessica loves someone?

[she thinks for a moment.]

I'm not sure who it could be...but she should tell them. Why would it be hopeless? Love is a good thing.

I don't have any clue of who it could be. It'd probably be someone she hangs around a lot, right? Hmmm.

I think she's afraid. Afraid that person won't return her feelings. While I think she's probably just being too down on herself, there is always the chance of rejection, and that can be scary, I suppose. [In all honesty, Zenobia's fear of rejection is generally completely dwarfed by like a dozen other things.]

Hmm...someone she lives with, maybe? I keep meaning to visit her.

That's... [she thinks about this for a moment.]

Rejection...I never...thought about that. For me, it was always just the feeling that was enough, I guess. But thinking about it, it...would hurt, if the person you cared about didn't want to be with you.

Isn't that easy to figure out, though? If they're friends...

Well, she does live with Epsilon... Hmm... Epsilon. That might be it. Since Epsilon told me that she doesn't experience love like a normal person... but I still think it would work if Jessica was in love with her. Somehow I think Jessica would be okay with loving someone without... um, certain elements of it.

Yeah. Rejection causes a lot of people distress. I've always felt that the positives of love are so great that they're worth possible rejection, no matter what, but not a lot of people agree with me.

Well, Jessica seems to have a few friends. The question is, which one of them does she long for in a deeper, more intimate way?

Epsilon? [Xion remembered her. She was quiet and kind.] Certain elements? I'm not sure I get it, but...if they get along, it would be okay, I think.

I'm just a little confused, I guess...do you mean, if you tell someone you love them and they don't feel that way, do they not want to see you ever again?

Yeah. If Jessica was in love with Epsilon, I think it would work out okay. Even if Epsilon didn't return her feelings, she's so nice that I bet their friendship would still be just fine.

Well, in the worst case, if someone confesses and is rejected, yeah, the other person may not want to see them again. But hopefully most people are more understanding than that. But in many cases, it can change the nature of the relationship between the two people. Things can get... well... complicated.

Yeah...you're right.

[she listens with her head tilted slightly, trying to wrap her head around this.]

That's...kind of sad. I mean, love is a good thing. Aren't most people happy to be loved? I know I would be.

Exactly, me too! I'd be flattered and happy. Even if they weren't my type, I would be touched! I think a lot of people are touchy about love in bad ways.

I wonder why...is it because they weren't taught the right things about it?

Maybe that's it. I don't know how people learn about love. Love was always something rare and special to me. It was something that, when I was little, I watched other people have. When I fell in love, I knew it was important.

...I couldn't confess my first real love, because I was scared. By the time I gathered my courage, she was in love with someone else, and I was left out. [That's not precisely how it happened, but that's how Zenobia remembers it.] After I learned more about my own feelings, I decided I wouldn't let that happen again. I'd be honest about my love.

[She thinks of Canada.] Though I suppose that's not always true. Just like with my first love, if two people are already a couple... I can't confess to one of them.

[she falls silent again for a bit, folding her arms under her chin.]

I'm sorry...that sounds...hard. But...it's not like you'd be saying you want those two people to stop loving each other, right? So what's wrong with that?

[it's then that she remembers a question that's been nagging at her.] Why does it have to be only two people that love each other?

Edited 2011-07-01 05:08 (UTC)

Ah. Well, the problem is, with romantic love, two people have to try real hard to make everything work between them. There are a lot of issues that can come up. So when you try that kind of love with more than two people, for each person you add, the effort to keep everyone happy can multiply.

Most people try to avoid this by forming into "couples," which means that they share their romantic love with just one other person. Some people in this mindset get bothered when someone else declares their love because it can be seen as trying to upset the "couple" by taking a member of it away. Does that make sense?

Though really, that does seem like a rather limiting mindset. You've got me thinking... It might be really wonderful to try a romance that involves a lot of people. What if, for example, there's someone I love who already has a lover? If they'd both accept me and we could have like a massive three-way concentration of love in this really beautiful triangle formation of loveliness, wouldn't that truly be great? [Zenobia's eyes start to sparkle. Is she having an epiphany?]

[she is so grateful for the patient explanations. ;o;]

That...makes a lot of sense. [being friends was hard enough when things got complicated.] But if things can work out between everyone, it would be great, right? Love is... [she thinks for a moment.] It's not taking away. It's...giving.

[Zenobia is happy to teach ^_^]

Xion. Wow. You really understand. You must have the purest heart. That would be a dream come true; being able to give love freely to everyone I care about.

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