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[reverentresistance]

[Ky knows her last question didn't exactly go well, or get her the answers that she wanted, but this time it's not about religion, so it should go better, right?

She thinks about filtering it from Dizzy, but she doesn't need to hide from Dizzy that she's working on this, not when she'd promised Dizzy she would.]

What do you do when you know what you're feeling is wrong, in order to stop feeling it?

Just trying to focus on other things isn't working.

Comments

[undefines]

You probably shouldn't just decide what she should be comfortable with, you know.

[Speaking from experience? Being a hypocrite? Both? WHO KNOWS.]

[reverentresistance]

We've talked about it. The relationship is mutually on hold until I can control my proclivities better.

[undefines]

...No, I mean it. Are you really sure? Because telling someone how they should feel about something probably won't work out in the long term. [...] I don't know how you plan to "control" yourself better when all you're doing is thinking, anyway. Are you going to hit yourself on the hand every time you have that kind of thought or something?

[reverentresistance]

But the one I'm telling how I should feel is me.

I think my moral sense should be able to conquer sinful desires.

[undefines]

If you're not hurting anyone, I don't see how something like that is sinful, but okay.

[reverentresistance]

Our thoughts can still be wrong.

[undefines]

You're not thinking about hurting anyone, either.

[reverentresistance]

What I'm thinking about might hurt her.

[undefines]

...Ugh. [Sounding super exasperated there.] Well, whatever. I don't get it, but do what you want.

[reverentresistance]

I'm...sorry to annoy you.

[ Even if Ky doesn't really understand why she's annoyed. ]

[undefines]

I don't get why you bother asking things when your mind is already made up.

[reverentresistance]

I know the direction I want to head. That's not the same as knowing the path.

[undefines]

I told you, just hit yourself on the hand every time you have a thought like that. [Stimulus-response association!!!]

[reverentresistance]

...Right.