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[reverentresistance]

The Queen's power has to be less than God's... So why do you think He lets us be brought here? This goes a little beyond giving us free will, don't you think?

[Ky's unsure herself, but there's no way to gain certainty. She can only find out what other people are thinking, and that for some reason feels particularly important.]

What purpose are we serving here?

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[reverentresistance]

Because with what we do here, the Queen might encourage a certain lack of moral values, but that doesn't make her right.

[imperial_ray]

So, wait... kissing me would would be... immoral?

[reverentresistance]

[It's not a comfortable topic for Ky even when it's staying in her head, let alone when she's talking about it.]

Ahh... Sort of.

[Which means yes.]

[imperial_ray]

-It was... really the worst way Ky could have put it, regardless. The defeat and sadness in Dizzy's voice is palpable. And she only says one word.-

... Oh.

[reverentresistance]

[Ky's instantly sorry, but the fact is that she was sorry before she even said it, sorry about what she'd known she had to say. She can't lie about it and can't pretend even just with herself and Dizzy that she doesn't know what the actual answer is.]

I can't...

[It's not Ky's fault, so why does she feel so guilty about it?]

[imperial_ray]

... I wish I could say I understood, but I don't.

[reverentresistance]

[This is wrong and uncomfortable, and Ky's sure she's supposed to be stronger than this -- although even now she can't say in which direction.]

What do you know of God, Dizzy?

[imperial_ray]

... I know what Oma and Opa told me. And later you. That God is a loving being, who has a place in Heaven for me, in spite of being a Gear.

[reverentresistance]

Yes, of course. It's not about who you are, it's what you do, and what choices you make.

[imperial_ray]

So... why is it wrong?

[reverentresistance]

It's giving in to selfish desires.

[imperial_ray]

How... how is love selfish?

[reverentresistance]

It is when it's paired with, well.

Lust.

[imperial_ray]

I'm not sure I understand.

[reverentresistance]

It's not just that I care for you and I have feelings for you -- which of course I do, but...

[This is embarrassing, and guilt-provoking, and Ky feels terrible, but Dizzy does deserve to know.]

I also... want you. In ways I know I shouldn't.

[imperial_ray]

-She does deserve to know, but... it kind of goes right over her head.-

Want me? But you have me, yes?

[reverentresistance]

[Ky almost never finds eye contact difficult, but just now it's disconcerting how Dizzy can't follow what she means, how it makes Ky feel even more guilty. Still, she makes sure to keep her blue-green eyes on Dizzy's red ones.]

I mean, like kissing and that sort of thing.

[imperial_ray]

But we've kissed before and you didn't seem any different.

[reverentresistance]

I...It's like the gateway to letting myself think about other things.

[imperial_ray]

What other things?

[reverentresistance]

[This is the worst conversation to be having, really.]

Immoral things. It's my problem, not yours. Don't worry about it.

[imperial_ray]

This is really confusing...

But... will you still at least try to kiss me?

[reverentresistance]

The fact that it's so confusing to you means that I very clearly shouldn't.

[imperial_ray]

Oh... W-well, if you think that's best... But...

[reverentresistance]

There can't be a but.

[She doesn't want to have made this decision, but it's clearly the only thing that's right.]