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I'm willing to talk. What do you have to say?

I know a Zack Fair. He is my friend Angeal Hewley's young protégé. I don't know of anyone named Cloud.

[Zack is still alive then, and Cloud is fine, which means there's no Nibelheim disaster.]

I am familiar with all those things and places. However, I have met people here from similar worlds, that contain many of the same places and people, that yet have great differences between them.

[A man? She hadn't realized that the Sephiroth in Tifa's world was a man. Interesting.] If I am male in your world, clearly our worlds are not the same. There is no need to apologize, if you believed me to be the Sephiroth who is your enemy.

[Which means that she isn't going to be forthcoming about anything in her world, none of the events that progressed her. It's her responsibility to prevent that.]

[A pause. Apologizing to Sephiroth. This is bizarre.]

I have always been a woman. I have not been changed. [If she were speaking, her tone would read as terse. She finds it very difficult to believe that all her memories could have been changed, and she dislikes the idea of being altered without her consent. It's a more unsettling prospect than simply being abducted.] I'll agree that it's impossible to say for sure how different our worlds are, and perhaps the greatest differences lie in the future. I accept your apology, Tifa. If I had been this hostile Sephiroth, it would have been unwise of you to reveal yourself to me at once. [The strategic advice is a habit. She would say the same to her men.] But as I said, I mean you no harm.

[She's not going to argue the point, but this is entirely too weird for her, and she's still trying to make sense of things.] [There's a moment, where her handwriting goes a little shaky, and she is grateful she has chosen not to speak for this conversation. Were it anyone else, Tifa may have been inclined to accept the advice graciously. But she is not ready to listen to any version of Sephiroth. It takes a great deal of effort not to lash out. She realizes the danger she may have put herself in, or Aerith.]

Edited 2011-03-25 06:33 (UTC)

There is no maybe. We come from similar worlds with slight differences, as I said. I don't doubt that the man named Sephiroth had a different experience. [In some ways. Not in the laboratory. Of course she wouldn't have been given a different name, even if she'd been born male.] I joined SOLDIER at the age of fourteen, and I have a very clear recollection of the negative reaction caused by my sex. I was the first woman in SOLDIER, although I have heard that recently, the number of women wishing to join the military has risen significantly. [She doesn't doubt that that is because of Shinra's seeming desire to plaster her face everywhere.]

[She notes the slight shift in handwriting, but does not react to it. She gives no more advice. Although she does not wish Tifa harm, she would not give someone who is possibly hostile too much assistance.] In analyzing what I have learned from speaking to you and to Aerith, I believe my early years are somewhat similar to those of this male Sephiroth. He is in SOLDIER. He is respected. However, there is a point at which this changes. I am sure you will not tell me what causes this change. I will not ask you. [Interestingly, they both mentioned someone named Cloud. She assumes that this is quite significant. Is Cloud someone she should seek out, or someone she should avoid?]

Tell me only this: if I am dead, is the same true of my friends in SOLDIER? If there is some way I could protect them, I would like to know. [Perhaps she cannot trust Tifa's answer, but she can ask, and an answer might tell her something.]

Edited 2011-03-25 22:39 (UTC)

[She takes this all in, making notes of all the differences, and begins to write after a little while:]

I understand. I will not ask you. Telling me what happened might help me to avoid it, but you have no reason to believe that I won't seek it out. [She is not sure what she would do. It would seem sensible to avoid such a thing, but she is curious. She faces danger, does not shy away from it.]

[She hesitates, and there is a long pause in her writing as she takes in what Tifa said about Zack. Bright, funny Zack. He's so young. If Zack is gone, then Angeal... Not for the first time since speaking to Tifa, she considers the possibility that her friends will die within a few years.]

I am sorry he is gone. [How can she truly grieve when he is not dead in her world? Maybe he will not be lost in hers. Yet she does feel sorrow.] I am fond of Zack.

[a beat, then she adds:] [She's conflicted. She would hate to be as Sephiroth was, not knowing her parents. But maybe if she and Aerith could explain it the right way. Lucrecia, not Jenova. It's an awful revelation, but it would prove Sephiroth was human. Maybe it would change things.

She's not ready for it yet, but one day.

She's quiet...surprised at Sephiroth's response to Zack's death. But it makes sense. Cloud had said things were different then, and she'd witnessed it herself.]

I am always careful. I am a SOLDIER. [Tifa does not know her, does not know that it is difficult for her to form connections with others, but she does not point that out.] However, I will be returning home, and the people here will no longer be relevant to my life. I will not see them again.

[At peace--that brings her no comfort. Surely the dead are simply dead. She has seen many people die, and she has never known them to experience peace.] I hope he died with honor. [Honor makes more sense to her.]

[She hadn't forgotten how Sephiroth was, when they first met, and now the fear creeps back, the feeling of foreboding.]

[She knows from Cloud that Zack is somewhere safe, and she knows how he died, the sacrifice he made.] [This conversation is making her feel tired, sad. Even though it's been seven years since Nibelheim, this is too new for her. Too strange.]

I am being rational. When I return home, they will provide me with no feedback or support if I find myself in a difficult situation. We have no reason to believe that this experience is genuine.

[Knowing that Zack is dead has put her in a poor mood, for various reasons. She does not ordinarily jump to conclusions, but it reinforces her already present worry that Angeal is going to die. She can only hope that their worlds will diverge further, or that Tifa is lying.] I am glad that he did. Very well, if that is all you have to say.

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