[It's hard enough to maintain her composure, something she's been clinging to as best as she can, some idea that if she doesn't cry it'll make things easier. But all it does is bottle it up inside her. Maybe if she had been some other way, she could numb herself to that all. But it won't work.
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Her voice wavers a bit, soft as it is already.]
She'll come back again, won't she? To stay?